Jesus I dove down a rabbit hole
When I started streaming I started it for fun. I never thought I’d get 10 viewers, let alone 100. Then I got tied up with the first streamer I ever watched, Sam.
After a bit of back and forth and mutual support between the two of us, I got in with other Insert Coin members. After a couple of months; I’m part of that stream team. I mean, I’m part of a brand now.
Then, interacting with these dudes, I start looking more and more into fighting games to play with one of the streamers and now here i am, post purchase of a fightstick about to buy Skullgirls and really PUSH for that competitive gaming thing.
I’m a noob and it will be a while but the idea that I’m even considering gaming in the competitive realm is so far and away from what I started as. Not just as a gamer, but as a person. So different from the rest of my adult life where I’ve just been engaging in escapism only and disregarding the entire community because of trolls and shit.
On top of that I’m making plans to fly to MD for MAGFest to hang out with these people. Shit’s changed in my life this year. I mean I know none of this means much to you, but fuck 2014’s been a pretty good year for me.
As an aside, I’m getting further into the music and the culture around gaming, too. I mean it’s always been a big part of my life but it’s eclipsing everything else in a way that is much more than I thought it capable of being, I guess
My personality has shifted with my body composition, for real. I’m more open to making new friends, I feel happier, but not just happier, more social, more accepting.
Like I went from “people are shit” to “people are alright.”
I mean there are a lot of shitty people, but on average people are just that, average. There are some amazing ones out there and I shouldn’t use negative experience as an excuse to be an anthropophobe.
Essentially the tl;dr for this is: I love video games and the people who play them, even if there are a lot of shitheads out there